EGADS! It has been 2 weeks since Dacian was born. (well tomorrow will be anyway) And it has been so much fun. He loves to sleep on his tummy, is very quiet when he is awake and he just loves to look at everything (at least what is within his visual range anyway), he is already a mama's boy. He falls asleep almost immediately when I try to breastfeed him so we bottle feed breast milk right now, he loves to co-sleep and admittedly so do I. He makes the best milk-drunk faces. Freddy and I just love to watch him in this stage. He has 2 dimples that I am absolutely in love with, his nose is slightly crooked and he has very red highlights in his hair just like me.
Since Uncle Tony took Valeska for a day of fun, Freddy is at work and Dacian is sleeping I start scouring the interwebs for some fun stuff that would pertain to this blog. Here is what I found. Have fun
I am not exactly sure how to go about starting this venture but I think here is a good start. I want to start showing people (in my community) how easy, affordable and convenient cloth diapering is. El Paso, TX happens to have a lot of very low income families. Because of this a lot of the families are unable to afford diapers. It is either eat or diaper my child. This is a critical problem here and I hope to improve this dire situation with a bit of my knowledge and growing experience.
I have decided to use this blog not just to update people or give them insight into what a goth family does but also to give my honest opinion on products that affect us an eco-family. So, every Friday I will review one or two products that are relevant and will hopefully help you figure out if said product is for you and your family.
So today is my due date. I don't particularly miss being pregnant but I am missing the anticipation. We as preggos go so long waiting for our little one to arrive and then once the big day comes we are overjoyed. And then we get so busy with everything that goes with taking care of a new human being we tend to over look the fun we had anticipating the arrival of said little human.
Whew!! What a whirlwind week we have had here at the ecogoth house. I haven't had time to really update everyone on what has been going on. Now that I have made breakfast, started some laundry, cleaned up the kitchen, fed and pumped, and pulled out another tooth, I have just a moment (maybe two if I am lucky) to post about our eventful week.
Yep. This is my last day of being pregnant ever again. I am obviously not known for being the shiny happy pregnant woman. I have had a lot of pain and issues with this pregnancy and the last one. It has made my life a bit unbearable. If I didn't have the mental issues such as pregnancy depression I might have been better equipped to handle the physical pain. The triggers for the depression are still there but I am getting stronger and better able to deal with them. So I am doing better with that. Talking with other bumpies has helped tremendously. I don't feel alone. I don't feel like a pariah. I feel comforted in a world of unrest and uncertainty. I have gotten close with other June moms because of it. So, in a way I am grateful. I don't like that any of us are dealing with it but in that there is comfort. I am grateful.
I don't know particularly why but today I am having a bit of "a day". I had a wonderful breakfast with my BFF and my family. She brought over the photos (see post below) and I LOVE them. I love them so much in fact that it is making me nostalgic. Not just memories from my past but also for the memories we are now creating. It is 39 hours until Dacian comes and I don't know how exactly our lives are going to change but I am anxiously awaiting it. Valeska will not longer be a single child but a big sister. We will no longer be a family of 3 +2 dogs but family of 4 +2 dogs. Freddy will not be solely Valeska's daddy but a daddy to Valeska and Dacian. Things are going to change and I know only for the better.
Thanks to my BFF and Bella Fine Arts Studio we got the most amazing photos taken at 38 weeks. She convinced me this was a good idea and even though I didn't think it was, it turned out that I am very very thankful for them. These are memories that I know I will treasure for life. Enjoy.
Freddy and I are both proud people. We love our culture and heritages. We also love each others which this day in age seems to be a rare thing. I find it fascinating that he is Apache/Mexican and he finds it intriguing that I am Czech Roma/Sicilian.
When we decided to have our first child we knew that there were certain criteria the name had to meet.
1. Must represent each culture
2. Must have a strong/powerful meaning
3. Must sound rhythmic/beautiful
4. Must be a real and not made up name
5. Must "look" beautiful/strong (you know how some names just look beautiful when spelled out?)
While watching tv with Freddy and Valeska tonight I started wiggling Valeska's first loose tooth. I noticed the other day that her adult tooth is coming in from behind the baby one so I wanted to get it out. We were giggling and laughing at how loose it was getting. Then I decided to start pulling it.
Yesterday I had my maternity/family photoshoot with my BFF Sani. She is an amazing photographer. As much as I don't "normally" like pictures taken of me she convinced me that I might regret not having them done. So we did it. And even though Freddy hates having pictures taken, we all had a great time. I can't wait to see the finished product.
Saturday afternoon I am laying in bed just chillin after work. I am very excited to be on maternity leave and to relax for the next 9 days until have the c-section on the 13th. Then I sneeze. It is a pretty big sneeze and normally would actually feel kind of good. But this SOB hurt me really bad. I don't know exactly how but it aggravated my SPD symptoms so bad that I was instantly crying. It felt like my pubic bone shattered.
I really should have written this on Wednesday but I suppose now is as good of a time as any.
I have been having a harder and harder time doing anything without pain due to the SPD (symphisis pubis dysfunction). My braxton hicks contractions are very constant (though not consistent) and are getting stronger. This is putting a lot of pain on my pubic bone. Because of this I have decided that doing a natural labor would be too excrutiating for me. So I would end up having an epidural (which I soooo wanted to avoid). These have been shown to slow down labors and since I am notorious for having long labors and the restrictions put on me for my VBAC to progress picture perfect or I would end up having a c-section, I decided to cut out the middle man and schedule my repeat c-section.